Last Friday,

before I going into a ski trip...

one of my university friend told me that my ex is in the hospital... she`s coma..

 

because it`s my dream to skiing... I go and skiing /w my classmate..

at first I`m trying to be me... who laugh... and joking a lot...

but after I fall down and almost go down to a cliff... I realized that persons life can be change in a blink of a second..

and after that my ski trip is become worst and worst...

I only can looked up to the sky and thinking about her...

at the return trip... i had a worst feeling ever...

my heart... my head... and my body felt someting that I can`t explain.

 

and then when I go back to my room... I`m check my mail...

and my university friend is mailed me again.. she said that my ex is suffering from aneurysm..

so I suddenly call my doctor friend..

I was shocked to hear that if a person already in a coma and sufferd aneurysm..

the chance to stay life is low, and if she`s alive.. she`ll not gonna be normal anymore...

 

I`m so SHOCKED... too SAD...

and what makes me more and more sad is I can`t be /w her..

I have a lot to do here in Japan...

I felt so fucking hurt..

 

I can`t concentrate in everthing that I do at first..

now I`m feeling better... after I tried to ask God to give her the best that she can get..

even the best for her, maybe is not the best for the ones that love her...

 

Na....

sorry I can`t be /w you...

I do still care bout you..

that`s why I want the best for you

I`m trying to be more and more stronger everyday

and may you get what best for you.

 

erik sinaulan